Sabaw forever.

We are currently walking beside the sandy beach
our hands — intertwined together 
no one dared to speak
awkward silence fills the air

“Are you really sure about this?” 
you broke the ice
“Yes..”
I said nervously

I know this isn’t right..
I know this is wrong
but what can I do?

I’m inlove with my cousin and there’s nothing I can do.

You broke my heart
You crushed it into pieces
You hurt my ego
Now karma’s in the way

I saw you crawling on the floor
With blood all over your body
Yeah, I just stabbed you with a knife
So what? This is just a game

I went near you, and grinned sheepishly
As if I’m innocent as you are
Oh wait, we’re both a devil
But I guess, I’m more than you are

All I want is —blood
And yes, that’s what I need
You see I’m thirsty for a quite time
So what if blood is stain?

I stabbed you 14 times
With a rusty old knife
I know I’m a criminal for doing this
But you are just too much

“Please stop this.” You begged
My ears are stuffed with lies
I don’t even care who you are
I just want to make this fair

Blood and sweat, is what I can see
But I’m still not satisfied
I want to see you suffer
Torture?—Yes

Your redish lips are now as pale as snow
Your grey eyes beg to stop
But my mind is possessed with revenge
So sorry if I can’t stop now

Death—that’s what I want
Grim reaper is waiting right now
Now let’s see whose more wise
I or You? Think again my friend

I’m more powerful than you

You just stopped moving
An evil smile formed on my lips
Looks like I just won this game 
You’re dead and everything will never be the same

Sorry my dear friend, your life just ended..
In the hands of your ex-bestfriend.

I wonder why.

Maybe it reached to the point that they got so attached to that person and they’re scared to let go. So when that person leaves them, they have no choice but to kill themselves because for them, that person is their world, and living without them is like living in pure hell..

Razor, rope or pills.. Which one to choose? Her hand is trembling while reaching for the rope. This is her decision and no one can stop her. This is the final attempt and she’s hoping no more. She wishes that she wouldn’t wake up again in a white, clean place; The hospital. She’s tired. So tired.. And she just want to end up all the pain. So this is it.. Her final goodbye.

You know why I hate you? It’s because everytime you pass by, I can’t help but stare at you. Even when my mind is already saying, “Don’t look! I still have this feeling inside me that makes me want to look at you even for just a second. Yes, you’re that special to me, and I don’t know why. Pathetic isn’t it? You didn’t bother a second to notice my existence, and still.. I’m here, waiting for nothing. 

Now look at yourself. Don’t you pity yourself? Hurt.. Anger.. Revenge.. That’s what I can read from looking straight to your eyes. Please stop. I can’t stand it anymore. I’m here from a distance watching you. I want to help you and calm you down. I want to comfort you but I can’t. My feet wont move. My knees are turning jelly. You’re so close yet so far. I want to reach out my hand to you. I want to tell you that everything’s gonna be okay but when I’m right in front you, I can’t utter a word. I don’t know why I’m always speechless everytime we met. And now, all I can do is to stare you from afar, tears are running down my cheeks. Oh god, why do I have to witness all of these? Hurting yourself.. No please!

Everyday, I always think about you.
Dreaming and thinking that someday, you’ll love me too.
I always stare at the sky and say:
“Oh god, please let him be the one that’s worth the pain.”

I always wish we are destined to be.
No one can break us, ‘cause that’s what I believe
Please look at me straight in the eyes boy
‘Cause that’s what I’ve been dreaming for

Staring at you is my favorite hobby.
Your black eyes that kill me with disguise.
Why do you have to be so attractive?
So now I’m all alone in despair.

I can’t breathe without you.
‘Cause you’re like the oxygen.
They say opposites attract. 
Well I think, You and I collide. 

“How are you?”

“I’m fine.”

“Are you really sure you’re fine?”

“Why are you asking anyway?”

“Because I care for you..”

“Really? Well, that’s lame. Because no one cares for me.”

“But I do.”

“No, you don’t care for me. You just pity me.”

“Is that so?”

“Yes, no one cares for me. They only care if I’m gone.
So better leave me alone..”

“Oh.. But, I really hope I made you feel better. Even if just for a while.”

“Don’t mind me. Now go away.”

I was inspired by Ate Princess. So yeah, ganyan yung story ko. Dejoke. Nakaka-relate ako.. Mga 80% ata? Hihi, yay. Because of boredom. Ge, sleep na me. Night. 

I am currently thinking why people tend to blame their own faults on others. Wow, I mean does their conscience already eating them up or maybe it was asleep? You’re a coward. You made that problem then face it, Beach!

Love is just a 4-letter word. But this 4-letter word has a deep meaning that no one can ever explain. You know that feeling when you get butterflies on your stomach? That feeling when your crush passes by at the corridor, and then instantly, your day is made!That feeling when your crush looks at you.. Your heart melts away instantly. That’s what love can do to people. Amazing isn’t it? But the sad part is.. Love can hurt a person so much. So much that a person begins to change into a different one. It hurts a person so much that that person can even think of committing suicide. 

Yes, that’s what love can do. It can make you happy, flattered, blooming, sad, broken, depressed, suicidal, hurt, etc. It can even ruin your life. But it depends on you if you would let that happen. Anger can eat you up because of love. That’s sad right? But, you can’t force yourself not to love. Love finds a way. You will be shocked seeing yourself loving the person whom you never expected to fall in love with. Love is blind. love is mysterious. Everything’s so curious about this word. Because this 4-letter word had already changed the lives of millions of people.

People tend to think that when they say sorry, everything goes back to normal. Are you really sincere about it? Or are you just doing it for the sake of thinking that saying sorry can fix the person’s feelings? NO. You hurt the person’s feelings and that’s it. Let me tell you, saying sorry without sincerity won’t do anything. Before you say sorry, you need to be sincere, aware, and deserving to be forgiven. 

I’m a pessimist. I look on things negatively. I just don’t like to expect anymore. It hurts when I get my hopes up then in the end, I’m just gonna be disappointed. I hate assuming. I hate it when I expect too much then in the end it didn’t turned out the way I expected it to be. Being a pessimist has it’s own advantages too. 

Pointing out the flaws that I have won’t make you flawless. Telling me that I’m ugly won’t make you any prettier. Telling me fat, won’t make you skinny. So stop hating missy. You’re just making yourself look stupid and lame.. And for the win.. You’re making yourself look insecure. Which is true right? 

Hating people. That’s so mainstream. I got used to it. People hate me for some unacceptable reasons. Come on guys, stop being so lame. Try being in my shoes first. So that you’ll know the person that you’re hating on. I know I just can’t tell you to stop hating, but at least try to have some consideration. ‘Cause your words hurt more than you could ever imagine.